Even the darkest storm would go away,

Saturday, September 02, 2006

U might think that i dun care alot for u last time but now, it's different!Again i fall in love with u and i hope we can last until end of our fate!OKAy??About ?????? i have give up on her le dun scared that i will go back to her. now is to be with u, shower u with all my loves and hugss!So pls dun give up so easily.no matter wad i will be here for u tis time, i swear!! thanks for giving mi a special chance!i will cherish tis chance. i will listen to u do wad u wanna mi to do from now on.NOw wad i wish to do is to shout as loud as i can that ILOVEYOU to let everyone noe that i'm xinfu to have u!!U are the onli one who filled mi heart!! HOpe we can start anew this time and treasure one another!

ILOVEYOU ALWAYS

- PIGS CANNOT FLY.
9:59 AM

Thursday, August 17, 2006

What if;

Sigh, both knee hurts alot. First left which made me cry then now right. but alot stuffs which is holding me back, badm, ball and dance. class and cca got in. I feel so kuku. and making up those steps was tiring. And my cough's getting worse like nobody business. sick for quite some time eh. but i refused to see a doctor, and still eating all those stuffs i'm not supposed to. oh well, i'm stubborn.

and i'm sorry.

Anw i realised one main thing i'm very afraid off is, pain.
The fact that it made me cry so many times shows it all right?

I screwed the chi test today! Write nonsense, wasn't awake. Lucky borrowed sk for dictionary or i'll be dead. and joke of the day hor! haha! so school went on and walked to compass with chaipeng aft sch to meet the others.
Oh and i also don like the p. Stupid irridiot. woke up SO early in the morning depriving this pig of her sleep. I took the first train can! Somemore reach the station 10mins before. then stupid 119 took so long. haha. and well, i was late. haha. so laid on the floor before assembly like a dead. i'm so tired.

Father seems angry eh. Cos i wan go play and train when i'm so sick.
oh dear, i'm sorry.. and i know being so stubborn won get me anywhere.

Well, i'm getting tired, really.
Yawns.

And you're giving me the impression that you don care.
andmaybethatscosyoureallydon.

Life is just a big jumble that moves along at its own pace

and if you're in a hurry then maybe

you should never have been here in the first place.

Ahhhh, why oh why, is there such things as keeping things in?
ihateit.

You're so out of my league
I show you no emotion
Don't let you see what you're doing to me
I imagine the two of us together
But I've been living in reality
whatifitoldyouthetruth?

Be happy eilis, be happy (:

Play along with me, will you?
Keep me entertained, like a big kid.
Even if you have to fake it, Do it.

Can you lie and blink it through,
Pretending that you care, and you really do?

- PIGS CANNOT FLY.
9:41 PM

Sunday, August 13, 2006

things i so much regretted;hurtingyou

walked ALOT ystd. Well, i guess i'm a super lousy pok singaporean! Claimed alot of times i got lost ystd. haha! well i should spend more time with the river i guess. haha oh and stuck on a bridge with airen, for almost an hour?! haha the feeling of being stuck in a human traffic was well, haha! I've never seen so many humans in my life man. and now i should know the bad stuffs about being short. haha i can't breathe! and bangs into ppl's shoulder, not head. laughs.

oh and i enjoy walking in marina square eh! I feel so tiny there. walking one whole big round and realising the place we wanna go is just next to the one we just saw. yeah, i lost. kukunehneh :D

Sigh my left palm hurts alot alot alot. Swollen eh. Its either hit on smth hard, or that trng did pt, fell and landed on palm. super pain! ):

and mario dunno evaporate go where! i need my stuffs! haha!

C'mon ppl, BE HAPPY! (((:
canyounotmoveon?
All the best to everyone, in everything! (:
whatifisaidineededyouhere?

Damn, i need a ranting machine.

I wanna get high, but I never could take the pain
'Cos it would blow away my soul like a hurricane
Like a one man band clapping in the pouring rain
If I know where I'm going, I don't know from where I came

Where we gonna be in summertime?
And are we gonna see the heavens shine
Like diamonds in the sky?

As soon as they come
The feelings they go
All alone, on a one way road

will you still love me in the morning?

- PIGS CANNOT FLY.
9:13 PM

Friday, August 11, 2006

No Promises;

Well, since its meant to be broken, then why promise?

sigh, training is super !!! these days. I don't know what is going wrong. Man, i need help to cope with distraction! haha nvm, i'll try.

bused down to yishun alone, far eh, quite long ride, but kinda hoped it'll be longer. listened to songs, and well, thought alot.

And damn, i missed the fireworks just now! ))):

okay, i'm tired. i'm a pig, i want to sleep (:

hmm aft talking to airen, i do admit here that i feel kinda tired, she says she don understand me, neither do anyone i guess, for one fact which i agree with her. There's no point saying your troubles and all out and in one way adding to the burdens of others. I do thank all those who care for me, for trying, but its alright. You know eilis can do it, right?

Same question shoots right back at me,
Am i assuring myself or assuring others?
Number 1 oh number 1.

Someone agreed i cause ppl to worry without knowing, really?

Well, to someone, i don really want you to get hurt, Seeing you treat her, infact everyone so nicely, yet you never get good things in return. Yes i'm upset. You're a nice person, well, don worry! I'll pray, wish and hope that happiness will come your way soon, just wait and see! haha. Have faith my dear, not everytime it'll be bad, maybe there's hidden bliss? HAHA! well i'm here always though (((:

Well, life's a long run indeed.
Stamina, strength, faith, perserverance?
All of them, and so much more.

This song's super nice (:

It's funny when you find yourself

Looking from the outside

I'm standing here

But all i want is to be over there

Why did I let myself believe

Miracles could happen

'Cause now i have to pretend

That I don't really care

I thought you were my fairytale

My dream when I'm not sleeping

A wish upon a star that's coming true

But everybody else could tell

That I confused my feelings with the truth

When there was me and you

I swore I knew the melody

That I heard you singing

And when smiled

You made me feel

Like I could sing along

But then you went and change the words

Now my heart is empty

I'm only left with used-to-be's

And once upon a song

I know you're not a fairytale

And dreams were meant for sleeping

And wishes on a star

Just don't come true

'Cause now even i can tell

That I confused my feelings with the truth

Because i liked the view

When there was me and you

I can't believe that I could be so blind

It's like you were floating

While i was falling

And I didn't mind

Because i like the view

I thought you felt it too

When there was me and you

Well, be happy people! (:

Why do we always seem, to want what we can't have?
willyou?

Cherish and Fate.

- PIGS CANNOT FLY.
11:56 PM

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

Upon the fireworks;iwish.

Its good enough that i can see so many happy ppl around.
its alright, i can handle it ):

Gave my wishes for others,
And i hope they'll come true.
I dare not wish because,
iknowitwoncometrue.

I dare not long for anything, anymore.

And i thought maybe, all will someday lead me back to you.
if i ask you to play for me like the past, will you?

I didn't know what is fate until,
imetyouonthestreets.

i wanna ball, i wanna watch fireworks, i wanna play sparkles, i wanna be spoilt, i wanna be pampered, i wanna love and to be loved, i wanna play, i wanna laugh out loud, i wanna cry, i wanna be happy forever!
but there's one thing i don wanna be. i don wanna be perfect!
andiwantedsomuchmore):

Maybe i should ban myself from your blog then.
idonwantittobehowidonwannaittobe.

Alright ppl, be happy! (:

and, Guo Qi Jie Kuai Le! :D

Story of my life
Searching for the right
But it keeps avoiding me
Sorrow in my soul
Cause it seems that wrong
Really loves my company

Why do we always seem,
to want what we can't have?

if you ask, i won deceive.
forfearofrejection,keptmyloveinside.
nowtimeisrunningout,sodamnmyfoolishpride.

Hui.

- PIGS CANNOT FLY.
9:47 PM

Monday, August 07, 2006

Back to square one; a circle again.

MG! my hse here got THREE funeral! wo de tian ah. LOL!

me: talks non stop bout tmr -
daddy: come home early tmr
me: huh why?! for what?
daddy: tmr Qi Yue Shi Wu.
me: huh? i thought wuwu all come out le? you mean tmr the strongest?
daddy: dunno.. tmr you see how lor.
me: but i nvr do any Kui Xin Shi. nth will happen! CHOY slaps mouth*
daddy: you sure nvr do kui xin shi? don look like..
me: eh stop it leh! make it seem like so scary!
daddy: better be careful.
me: OH MAN!

LOL! hahaha daddy's very lamb. hahaha oh dear. i better find some companion to pei me talk on the way home! haha i'm not scared, yet scared. haha.

yay they say cake's nice! peanut eh, peanut. HAHA :D

oh dear just quarrelled and make someone pissed again..
i'm sorry ):

Roles switched.
youme,meyou.

Have you seen your sun set,
Fade beneath a rain cloud.
Have you ever chased your dreams away?
Did you ever think that
Life was just a never ending road of lonely days?

I stand tall, but i fall, the moment i think of you.

Hui.

- PIGS CANNOT FLY.
11:15 PM

Sunday, August 06, 2006

i want to watch fireworks and play sparkles!!! ):
~~imissthepast!)':~~

- PIGS CANNOT FLY.
8:51 PM