About Kelly

I am, most importantly, a servant of God and Jesus Christ. I try to live my life after Jesus' teachings, even though I fall short so many times. I could not have survived through the trials life throws at me without God.

I have lived in Florida my entire life, and loved it. I'm a born and raised Gator fan, "in all kinds of weather".  I met my husband when I was six - no, we weren't engaged that young! One of the lovely things about a church family is that I met my future husband there. We didn't get along for the first nine or so years, but eventually became close friends and that evolved into dating and marriage. I married my best friend on August 2nd, 2008.

In 2009, I was diagnosed with shingles. At twenty three years old. The rash didn't get bad, but oh, the pain did. The rash went away quickly (on my shoulder and side of my ribs), and the pain stayed. It moved up from my shoulder into my neck, and then into my face, where it moved to both sides. Doctors called this "crossing the midline", and this apparently broke some law of shingles to where they were certain it could not be shingles. This resulted in being sent to multiple neurologists at different hospitals. I was put through MRIs, CT scans, and a lumbar puncture. We were getting desperate in 2012. The beginning of that year we started trying injections into my neck and face. Short version, they didn't work. In addition to all of these other diagnostic and surgical options, I was on a myriad of drugs. By October of 2012 I had weaned off of all medication, since nothing was helping my facial pain.

We started trying to grow our family not long after. It's not as easy as it seems! After about ten months of negative pregnancy tests (and more than a few tears), we got a diagnosis. Not one that we're quite comfortable sharing with the internet and public, but we were told we could keep trying on our own for a few more months or as long as we were comfortable. There were options and to "not give up", as it wasn't horribly bleak. Two months later, we were completely overjoyed to find out I was pregnant! We told our families over the holidays and had never been happier.

All of this happiness was ripped from our hands on January 17th, 2014, when we were told our baby's heartbeat could not be found. We are trying to heal and holding onto each other for a lot of support. We are constantly praying for the blessing of a baby, even though that will not take away the pain that losing our Sweet P caused, I believe it will hurt a little less.


Rainbow baby: ˈrānˌbō/ˈbabe noun - A baby that is born after a miscarriage or still birth, as a beautiful rainbow follows the storm. The rainbow does not mean there is not damage from the storm, or that the storm never happened, but that there is something beautiful through the rain.

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